Thursday, August 2, 2012

Adieu Silliness... ;)


Searching and yearning...
M lost again in you…
Circumstances concerning…
What went off??? No Clue…


Probing and cursing
U instruct? You’re who?
Anxieties keep churning
Your mood swings turn blue…


Your conceit, my learning
On love still, cling to…
Wounds open, free burning
On that, dreams,  I brew…


Times happy so, back turning
Love n sweethearts anew
Anger heat so…scorching
It’s a lonely walk through….


Kiddo selves-ly returning
Trying n saving, fall through…
My judgments adjourning
M bidding adieu...


P.S. Badly Badly missing... Some parts of me...

Sunday, May 13, 2012

Ultimately it’s Fun…

I am marveling at the speed and numbers in which (seemingly?) problematic situations can attack you and pin down your ever-so-awesome and ever-so-appreciated survival instincts…So much so that you wonder, what-the-heck-to-write-about and worst, where-to-start…that too, on a blog where you’ve comfortably displayed something as (seemingly?) complicated as your life in cryptic metaphors…

So back…is me, not yet completely recovered from the after-effects of one of those dreaded monsters listed in the brochure of every medical insurance policy…(The eyuk- yellow fever)…stricken with fuming rebellion for bureaucracy…and though the doctor suggested a cool atmosphere and cool eating habits, I’m still dwelling in the hot waves of egos inflated beyond logical explanations… (read health issues, cheating in an  important exam result for which the fight is still going on and flat-mate problems resp…)

Tastes bitter…not just the doctor-advised meals n medicines for jaundice, but also the realization that we live amidst a non-rational race of most, if not all homo-sapiens…People who were unfortunate enough not to be born with inbuilt balances where they could weight rights and wrongs separately and then take a right call…based on (righteousness? lets forget it) whatever but extreme selfishness and egocentricity…

Good news is...these realizations improve your immunity…you no longer fall prey to anger, which our sacred saints called the most awful enemy of mankind…but you pity those who are continuously striving towards making the planet such a horrible place to live in for themselves first, and then for others…

And one fine day you realize that your experiment with pitying has become fun…when the other person is fuming with anger you are simply rolling on floor laughing…when health issues consume you, you smile n say…"So finally I’ve done it! My managers are left with no more excuse to cancel my leaves…Cheers!!!"...And even when something as catastrophic as blasts and political gamble to the loss of entire country happens, you simply shrug your shoulders off n say…It happens, Shit happens...

P.S. My respect for Aamir khan has increased multifold, Satyamev Jayte truly superbly inspires…An awesome assignment…
P.P.S. Strange how many weird things can make you happy (Happy?)…

Sunday, February 26, 2012

Awaiting (The Dawn)…


Not to mention, dusk hours they were…She was finally up after that oh-so-refreshing slumber of 16 hours on her favorite red linen bed sheet and the not-so-comfy PG bed, custom made enviably comfortable by adding piles of cushions and pillows…

She no more LOVED the evening like she used to…There was no more fun in waiting for dusks, no one left to compare the color of them with her complexion, no one to make the music play to the tunes of happiness, no one to let her drown her worries with the flow of alcohol, no one to plan the PARTY for the night…those beautiful bottles worth growing lots of money plants in them, lay there, absolutely wasted, trapped in her almirah, hopelessly awaiting return of her joyful self, much like herself…

Dusk hours passed by, thinning the brightness and the relaxed skin of her forehead into contracted random lines of worries…For once, she thought a simple text will do… “hey, so you don’t even have time to ask how am I feeling now? Do you even remember I wasn’t well?” But, realized soon after, all he could do was to tell her “Take Care”… Ultimately, SHE’s gonna be the one taking all the care. Care, to make herself feel special before her very self, Care to exclaim to her own delight, everything is alright, Care to make her presence felt…

Images of those mirages called relationships floated before her eyes as the sun made its final appearance below the Pune clouds. Getting better of the inactivity, she finally opened the good old laptop, skimmed through some old pics, old comments on facebook before picking up his call… and soon after some “I wonder where is it going?” “I’ve no clue whats going to become of my life.” “Please yaar, cut the crap, I’ve office to attend tomorrow”…” GoodNight!!!”… She lay there again, peacefully not with dreams but with apprehensions of unforeseeable tomorrow…

“I cant ever rise so early in the morning” she says…I sincerely believe, one fine day she would love to acknowledge the rising and shining of the Sun, the Mighty God with all its valor…the novel beginnings of all so amazing days…so that when it dusks and nights, she sleeps off with beautiful memories of days worth spent with…
  
P.S. I started off to write a short story….dunno why, how, it shaped up to a depressing scribble…

Sunday, January 8, 2012

Flow in our veins…


Swelling congenialities…
Rowdy Arrogance…
Deprived of its soul…
still struggling perseverance….  

Affluent, educated,
so shamelessly sane…
Perceptions of drifts,
we hopelessly tame …

Communal fatigue,
Droopy responses…
Haunting why-the-heck’s  
Worth taken those chances???

Soughing intelligence,
restless populace…
Go-getter’s wretched dearth...
No truth hath no face…

Paralyzed poises galore,
Depleted campaigns…
Bloodsucking let-it-be’s
flow in our veins…

P.S. Someone please explain, How n Where the heck has the BIG BIG Anti-Corruption Campaign gone?
 

Sunday, January 1, 2012

To Gala Merriments …

A very Happy New Year Guys... :-)

Hope you’ve all activated your Send/Receive buttons this festive season, enjoyed the Christmas Gifts and now planning ahead of time by making endless (read useless ;) :P ) resolutions at the commencement of the New Year…

I truly believe life is a very beautiful journey and all of us, in some way or the other strive towards accomplishing the herculean pursuit of happiness…Some of us choose to call ourselves losers and some others find solace in being contented…Howsoever we may sketch the outlines of our own lives, whatsoever be our limitations, whensoever we may actually succeed, and whomsoever it may/maynot concern…This New Year, lets atleast TRY to forget all our worries, atleast TRY living for the moment, atleast TRY to make our dear earth a better place to live, atleast TRY to love our country more than our own selfish interests, atleast TRY to sometimes understand the elder generations point of view, atleast TRY to make someone feel blessed to have us, atleast TRY to make our own existence on the planet worthwhile…lets Smile, Laugh and party incredibly hard… Cheers!!!

Sunday, December 25, 2011

Buzzing Backroomz (Goodbye 2011)


I'm beginning to conclude another year guyz… (So is everybody else, I know, but this post is strictly about how I AM going to do it)…

Some of us love Dramatics…the contour of times in a prĂ©cis…We love the reflections…try to search our own selves in within the narrativez…
I’m a devoted lover of dramatics too…but sometimes, while the protagonist reaches the pinnacle, and the audience’s eyes are glued to the stage, my nomadic mind wanders to the backstage activity…THE taskforcez who are never concerned about whats going on stage…always putting things in order for the subsequent scenes…always FORECASTING, PLANNING, MAPPING ON… 

2011 has been a superamazing year…and this is what I’s doing backstage, every month of 2011, while the next month was brimming with yet another set of hyperactivity…

To begin with, while opposition was hoisting the tricolor jubilantly in its one of many Tiranga Yatras and government was making things more complicated by playing the game of cabinet reshuffle and fighting inflation (their own way),  I was trying to uncomplicate things and in the process ended up confusing myself even more each day…Finally Mr Jairam Ramesh gave me the much needed gyaan of let-it-be when the news of him wanting to demolish Adarsh Towers flashed on my TV screen… Ultimately I couldn’t help but decide that all my doubts were only a question of perspective and thus witnessed IPL auction drama silently…

Then February came and when people of my age were reciting “Love is in the air!!!” All I could hear all around was abuses!!! Gaddafi was calling the foreign media, Dogs, while crushing the pro democratic protests…THE CENSUS counted incompetency of our law makers by counting Ajmal Qasab as one of us… And while my country drowned itself into various scams, Yedurappa declared his assets and spectrum Raja made a scapegoat and finally sent to Jail, all I could say was Absolute Nonsense

I had no more to say or write while I got too engrossed in speculations made during THE world cup…I forgot everything while we rejoiced as a nation for each successful step toward THE cup of honor…Stopped just to celebrate Women’s Day in new light of being all grown up…

The color of my blood miraculously changed when we finally managed a Lanka Dahan in a match I’ll remember forever and ever and ever…I ignored the news of fake world cup and BCCI saving more than its fair share from IPL parties… Just enjoying the reflections of victory…

Hyperactivity on the world map reached all time new height with THE assassination of Osama and his burial in the great expanse of sea… The cries of Lokpal were just becoming audible and Tata’s were getting new woes by Mamta Di…Like many others, my reaction to the new beginnings was just laughing- off with a suggestion in accordance with Indian situations…Swalpa Adjust Madi guys…Chillax!!!…

Hot waves of June came and I got caught off guard by a new wave of complete transformation as I was literally transported from Bangalore to Pune, in a time which seemed like…milliseconds…Anna Hazare continued as against UPA and I continued being happy about all the change…all going on’s…Gaining confidence by the statements made by all wrong-people-at-wrong-places (PM stating he’s no lame duck) and the news of India beating China in growth soon, I finally stepped firmly on the trail of novel beginnings

My confidence proved to be awfully short lived as I was struck in awe by the immense money kept to rot in a place of worship and then by the explosion of terror at the city I was planning to visit each passing day of my stay in Pune…Mumbai got robbed off all prospects of peaceful life and my nation, off its self respect…Proving, yet again our existence as insects and the jobs Undone

As we continued diving deeper in US debt, and while our prince charming started dreaming of THE throne of Indian Politics daily, We, the people joined hands yet again against corruption as our Anna repeated history by paying a visit to THE Jail and rekindled the sense of democracy…and we celebrated, however delusive that carnival may have been…

September proved to be a lone battle for me as it was for Chidambaram and UPA as a whole…for me, it was witnessing black marketing and corruption on personal front…But I proudly won while Acting on my own impulse and then forgot all the pain with the song of the wind…Chidambaram and UPA are still there, trying to fight by all means…Guess who was using fairer means??? :-D

Got summoned up for my recklessness while driving on my two-wheeler in October and then finally concluded that recklessness can definitely be fun at times…Following my example, BJP recalled all reckless people and decided to do a make over for Modi’s image…but when reckless Reddy landed up in jail I got too scared of continuing my reckless behavior as the visibility of my very own future reduced to less than 50 mtrs

I felt the long forgotten buzz all over again when I visited Mumbai and Band stand and developed a whole new affair with the waves…I decided to decide my reckless take on life all over again as the world called me an extreme case of psychosis…while UPA was blamed of its inability of decision making, I’s enjoying my own settings…When Anna was blogging out, and Pawar was slapped, I was just laughing out my loudest giggles…Cheers!!!

And now, when Anna is getting ready for a fresh new Jail Bharo movement starting from Mumbai and we’re getting ready for reelecting fresh new bloodsuckers to suck the national soul…I’m trying to learn new lessons of Let-it-be…

So like this…Life Goes On….So Do I…and since cherishing good times and forgetting bad ones is always what we are taught, in books, in philosophies and even in FB one liners, I’d say…Goodbye 2011… Loved you…You’ll always remain etched in my memories forever for all the real BIG transformations you’ve done in my life…

So, this is how I (We? Oh Yes, all of us in fact) am beginning to begin a New Year…

Friday, November 25, 2011

Psychosis…

 
You are sensitive!
You are dumb!
Self Obsessed!
m Numb…
You Command
Confuse...
You Mystify…
I (helplessly) succumb…
You come across
get creased
I crumple
so  glum
I wake up
with start
Weird reverie
Kept mum...
Moronic  laughter’s
Smiles sometimes…
Strange melodies
I hum…
At a loose end
m lost
From wrecked Horizons
You come…
I try to cherish
solace
Trouble, your being
become…